On a screen

Ξ March 21st, 2008 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Thoughts of a deviant mind |

Words on a screen do not define a person. They do not decipher what type of personality one might have, what type of human being a person may or may not be and it most certainly does not give you an indepth view on a person. It’s sad that just by me typing you are judging and trying to decide what type of person I am. I could type a bunch of jumbled up words and you’d still sit their trying to put me in a perfect cookie cutter category. The truth is you will never be able to define a person based on words. To me it’s a mere impossibility. How can one define another human being by words? How can you possibly know me when you don’t “really” know me? Until you meet me in person you can’t guarantee anything. You can’t guarantee that your idea of who I am is accurate. It’s not logical and it makes no sense.

Figure this. If I sit here and type a huge long rant about where my life is at the moment and use every inconceivable cuss word possible. Your assessment of me is that of an angry female. Someone who will inevitably explode into a volcano of anger and damage some poor soul. The end result is you thinking negatively of me. Now, think of this. What if my day was surrounded by pure negativity? What if I spent the whole day stressing about things or even possibly becoming ultimately depressed by something that has happened? By me typing up that big rant with cuss words I’m merely venting my frustrations on the days events. Instead of asking me what in the world could have gotten me so stressed out and so upset, you’ve decided to judge me. You’ve decided to say, “hey this girl is a problem. we need to shut her down and shut her off.” Why not sit here and ask why I’m so upset? Why not sit there and say “oh my god. what is wrong hun? what has happened?” You merely judge based on words on a screen when in reality you haven’t given me the opportunity to show what I’m really about.

You shun people because they are hurting. You chastise people because when they vent they are a bit colorful so to say. They couldn’t possibly be having a bad day, that’s not plausible. It must be that they are a troublemaker and are simply trying to start a riot. It’s sad that you only see what you want in people and not what’s really there. It’s sad that you close your eyes to actually knowing someone. You could blindly walk away from a great friend but because you choose to judge someone based on words on a screen you will never get to know them.

It’s tragic that you are that way. It’s sad that you judge me based on words. I’m sure you are judging me as you are reading this and for that I find you mildly pathetic. In all actuality if you met me in person you’d see what a loving person I can be. You will never see that side of me though because you already have your mind made up. You already believe that I’m an awful person. To be honest, what it boils down to is this: you weren’t and aren’t worth my time if you aren’t willing to see beyond an angry girl’s rant.

Point blank. End of rant. Have a lovely day now.

 

Dear Life

Ξ March 16th, 2008 | → 2 Comments | ∇ Thoughts of a deviant mind |

Dear Life,

I am so tired of all of this shit. It gets tiring when people continuously judge you based on words on a screen and don’t bother to truly get to know you.  None of you people know me. None of you have ever bothered to take a fuckin’ second to try. So, who the hell are you to judge me? I am an open book and you have constantly slammed me shut. The things you have said about me and the things you have done are unforgiveable.

What breaks my heart is the fact that when everything happened you automatically blamed me.  The truth is you were looking for me to falter, you were waiting and sadly you targetted the wrong person. Why do you always think that I am at fault for everything negative? It tears me down and breaks me down. It wears on ones conscience to know that they are viewed in such a negative light. I’m sorry. I”m sorry for you. You are shallow, closeminded and a liar. Stop pretending to care in front of my eyes. I know that it’s all a charade. You truly are pathetic and when your precious walls come crumbling down I will be on the other side smiling at your demise, for you have been doing that to me for ages now.

 You have made me turn away from a place I once loved, a place I once felt loved and safe is now a place to destroy me. Thanks for that….you know who you are!!!

 

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